extramission

the hymns that illness breeds into our hearts // a seed it sings

“well, I think it’s fatalistic to ignore the writing on the wall“

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. . . I killed myself a thousand times each and every week but

– and this is big –

I came back every fucking time.

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. . Now I won’t throw myself under every bus and stare at speeding ones

intently with longing, instead,

I’ll look at what I love.

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. When I stop trying to make everyone and their strangers and shadows

happy, hurting myself for every thing,

is when I start living.

_____(will)_______