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I’m sorry too.

openyou don't remember falling asleep or seeing anything before the flash of light and then, as it fades, the illuminated tunnel framed by sprawling glass windows leading to the temple you feel is beyond, in a moment of dread, you don't want to walk forward but you are flying faster than you can fall
o tr,r,nrt upi ys;lomh snpiy yjod
the apartment smelled of stale cigarette smoke and layers of dust that made your nose itch and your chest tighten, the sound of shouting from the next room can be heard and there is little mercy left to muffle the sound of their anger, repossessed furniture and and promised children when so much more than the rent but yes that too is overdue, blood will flow is already flowing
I think I have been there before.
the teeth tear in

I’m having a hard time doing real life.

-M

There are times when we lose sight of what’s important and struggle to come to grips with the reality of our situation. It’s during times like these that it’s best to remember that nothing is permanent, and that things will eventually get better. Take some time to yourself and cherish each moment as it passes to regain focus and clarity.
ɹǝbuoן ou pןnoɔ
ʎpoq ɹǝɥ uǝɥʍ uo ǝʌıן oʇ
ןnos ɹǝɥ ɹoɟ puıɯ ɐ ɹo
ןǝssǝʌ ɐ ǝq pןnoʍ noʎ
___ _____ _ʎɥʍ s,ʇɐɥʇ
uoıʇıuboɔ ɹnoʎ ɟo
sǝıɹoǝɥʇ ʎןɹɐǝ puɐ ɥɔɹɐǝsǝɹ
noʎ ɟo sɯɐɹbɐıp ǝɹɐ ʎǝɥʇ
ʎuıʇsǝp ʇou sı ʎɐʍɐ buıʇsɐʍ
an uncovered piece of mangled flesh tears to the heart like an exposed nerve i cannot be better than myself so everything is leaving faster than i could ever hope to catch or ever stand to be in any way

self 
or else

alas, 
in flesh
ʇǝɯɹǝʌǝu



red 
more than naught 

city alive in nightmare days, lost to dream labyrinths cascading endless

s,ɹǝɥʇo oʇ ɹǝpuǝɹɹns ı ǝɹǝɥʍ
ɟןǝsʎɯ ǝuıɟǝp oʇ ǝןqɐun
ɯɐ ı ǝɹǝɥʍ pןɹoʍ ɐ uı
ʇןǝɟ ı ןןɐɯs ʍoɥ ʇsnظ
ǝzıןɐǝɹ ʇ,upıp ı

ʎʞs buıɹnןןɐ uɐ ɥʇɐǝuǝq
sǝıן ǝʌıʇdǝɔǝp ɟo ǝdɐɔspuɐן ɐ
ʇqnop pǝʍopɐɥs puɐ suoıʇɐʇɔǝdxǝ ɟo
pןɹoʍ ɐ uı buıןqɯnʇ

ɯɐ ı ǝɹǝɥ ʇǝʎ puɐ
ǝɟıן ɟo pǝʞsɐ ɹǝʌǝ ǝʌ,ı ןןɐ sı
buıʇuɐʍ punoɟ ɹo pǝɹɐdɯoɔ ʇou
‘ɯɐ ı sɐ ʇsnظ ʇsıxǝ oʇ ‘ǝɯ ɹoɟ
ǝɯ ʇnq buıɥʇʎuɐ ǝq oʇ
sɐʍ ʇı pɹɐɥ ʍoɥ ǝzıןɐǝɹ ʇ,upıp ı

sprawling urban decay,
the neighborhood is having a nightmare
there's no forgiveness to forget

nothing left

a smile

on
uo

ʇ ǝʇɐɯǝɹ ɐ s
ʎɐp ɐ ɓoɹǝʌu

oʇ ouʍop ǝpısdn

in these days

i didn’t realize
that the darkness
was created from me

i’m so sorry
that i’m the one
to blame for my own depression

I didn’t realize that life could move so fast, and I’m struggling to keep up. I feel like I’m reaching for something that’s too far away, but I keep pushing myself forward. Each day I am reminded of how much there is to see and do in this world, and how little time there is to do it.

It wasn’t until recently that I realized how much I’ve been taking life for granted. There’s so much value in every moment, that it’s vital to remember that the clock is ticking and to cherish the opportunities each day brings.

I’m trying to be more mindful of my time, but it’s easy to get caught up in the hustle and bustle of life. I need to stop and recognize what’s truly important, and to begin making the most of all the moments.

It’s a work in progress
, but I’m amazed at how much I haven’t realized yet – the little things that can change everything. It’s a process of discovery and appreciation – enjoying the simple joys of life, and acknowledging the beauty of the big ones.

As I take a breath of fresh air, and appreciate the warmth of the sun on my skin, I realize that I’m alive and the world is full of wonders. I’m determined to take the time to savor it all.
, but I’m amazed at how much I haven’t realized yet – the little things that can change everything. It’s a process of discovery and appreciation – enjoying the simple joys of life, and acknowledging the beauty of the big ones.

As I take a breath of fresh air, and appreciate the warmth of the sun on my skin, I realize that I’m alive and the world is full of wonders. I’m determined to take the time to savor it all.

i didn’t realize, that my darkest momentwas when the answers to my fears were right in front of mei didn’t realize, that through these struggles, a strength emerged within memaybe it was always there, but i was simply hidden

i never realized that when the days of summer end,
all that’s left is another winter without a friend

the grass was greener on the other side,
but all that was waiting were sorrows that had no place to hide
so i wander through this dark and broken world,
unable to find a soul who’ll hear my words

but life carries on, regardless of our pain
and eventually, a light of hope will shine again
for i’ve found, when we open our eyes,
a chance

to pick ourselves up and rise

i’ve found true beauty in learning to riseabove our doubts and fears, find courage, and reviveour hearts and minds, that make us braveto face whatever tomorrow may bring

so let us strive, to see the future brightwe’ll break the

shackles of our past, and create anew with the heart, strength, and the will to carryon
i can proudly say, that i didn’t realize
how far i could go, just by believing in mestill exploring, discovering, and learning, even if
we trip along with their way
let us continue, our journey aheadwith courage and strength and the love of those around
for it will soon be revealed, the path to success
let us journey on, the destination is worththe effort and all the hard work

shackles of our past, and create anew with the heart, strength, and the will to carryon
i can proudly say, that i didn’t realize
how far i could go, just by believing in mestill exploring, discovering, and learning, even if
we trip along with their way
let us continue, our journey aheadwith courage and strength and the love of those around
for it will soon be revealed, the path to success
let us journey on, the destination is worththe effort and all the hard work
shackles of our past, and create anew with the heart, strength, and the will to carryon
i can proudly say, that i didn’t realize
how far i could go, just by believing in mestill exploring, discovering, and learning, even if
we trip along with their way
let us continue, our journey aheadwith courage and strength and the love of those around
for it will soon be revealed, the path to success
let us journey on, the destination is worththe effort and all the hard work

shackles of our past

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